I was doing 1200 calories. I think that's too low. I had zero energy to do anything yesterday and actually felt awful and got a migraine. I still managed to do day 3 of C25K, but it was brutal. I'm hoping eating more will help that, given that I'm exercising almost every day. I'm trying more like 1400 now. Hopefully it will help and give me more energy and still allow me to lose weight. I'm no impatient. I don't want to wait. 

I also really need to be patient about sleeping. I'm not sleeping well enough right now. Last night I spent two hours stressing about everything at 3 a.m. Kids' social lives, college costs, where they'll get into college, how we'll pay, etc. It would have been much better to be sleeping instead. I'm now almost two weeks after I last had something to drink last Saturday (and before that it had been a month). I want to go 6 whole months here and see how I do, exercise-wise, diet-wise, mood-wise, sleep-wise, etc. I'm hoping it will help. Right now I assume it's still affecting me. 

Mood-wise I'm doing ok right now. I tend to be depressed in the morning but the run has helped that. I'm doing ok overall, though insomnia and last night's worry session weren't great, were they?

But I'm grateful that it's a beautiful, sunny, warm February day and that we are fixing up the backyard. And for a clean house and good kids. 

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